Bitter Sunset

heureviolet

New LJ ;) I thought I needed to start over again (plus, I wanted a new name!). I'm sort of "off" hiatus, finally... but just to let you guys know, I'll still be commenting on YOUR LJs with this one. But updating with the other one.

(it's really strange, I know, but sometimes I just like having things neatly separated? I swear I'm insane.)

I know I've been terrible with commenting lately, and that probably half my old flist has already cut me, so thank you guys for sticking with this LJ ^^; I'll start flisting again in a few days! If you want to read updates, the link above is the place to go! ♥

I FINALLY CAVED. Add me on Facebook. Chantelle Yang. University of Toronto. The email should be: chantelle.yang@utoronto.ca

...*dies*

Stolen from shizukuin

Comment and I shall:
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Associate you with a character/pairing.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. Tell you my favourite user pic of yours.
8. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

Tagged by: Various f-list members ♥
Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

1. I've recently gotten addicted to watching old episodes of Frasier. And now officially have a crush on Niles Crane, in all his pretentious, neurotic, adorable glory.
2. I'm allergic to all kinds of melons. My throat gets dry and itchy and I start having trouble breathing, which is why you should never offer me any watermelon or papaya!
3. The rug in my room? Stuff by Hilary Duff. Yes, I'm ashamed, but it's also quite nice-looking, with its pink and green giant polka-dots and dragonfly pattern.
4. The first men's cologne I ever purchased was Davidoff's Echo, for my boyfriend at the time. Despite the not-so-cheery memories it brings, I still adore the scent!
5. On the political spectrum, I lean a bit towards the right. I always find myself agreeing with the Conservatives. I actually hesitate to put myself in a too left-wing environment, to be honest.
6. My favorite poets include John Donne, Sylvia Plath, and Dr. Seuss.
7. I abhor conflict, so I rarely ever state my real opinion on anything - unless I know for sure the other person agrees. Otherwise I don't see the point in causing any ruckus.
8. Depending on the situation, my voice can change quite dramatically - if I'm in class, out with friends, on a date, speaking with family members... I sound like a whole slew of different people!
9. One way I relax is by buying stationary. There's simply no hassle, everything is tiny, cute, and (relatively inexpensive), and one always gets a rush out of using one's purchases afterwards.
10. If I could invite any five people, dead or alive, to an imaginary dinner party... I'd have Audrey Hepburn (my idol!), Pierre Trudeau (who is a fascinating character), Mao Zedong (I'd be full of questions for the guy), Coco Chanel (the reasons should be obvious!), and David Hyde Pierce (look above to fact #1 - he plays Niles on Frasier!) ;D

...so, was that all new to you guys, or did you all know that already? :P

I tag anybody who wants to do this!

I should be in class right now, but instead, I'm freezing around in my chair at home, updating LJ. I only have two blocks together and skipped the first one (albeit accidentally) while my second comes in about two hours... ahh, time to kill. I just wish my parents would turn up the goddamn heat once in awhile. They really don't seem to realize my room is twice as cold as every house in the house, I think. Those bastards :)

On a completely random note, I'm addicted to those tiny, flavourless, sugarless little FRISK mints. I've popped at least a dozen into my mouth today... at least I'll have minty fresh breath, hey? I should really try and catch a nap right now, but I've already done my makeup and feel too lazy to take it off... plus, I'll have to get up in about an hour and a half if I do, which is completely insufficient nap time!

( A survey, because I'm really that massively bored today. )

Yay, I love wasting time.

Kelly Clarkson - Never Again
Album version, y'all, finally. It's brand new Kelly Clarkson, so if that doesn't induce you to d/l it... maybe the promise that it's alot darker and edgier than her past stuff will? Course', it's mostly still mass-friendly pop, but seeing as most of us like mass-friendly pop... this is definitely something you don't want to miss. This version reminds me even more of Alanis Morisette's "You Oughta Know" than the remix. It's the same kind of bitter, guilty-pleasure break-up gem of a song.

Did a bunch of makeup shopping today, went to my Math tutor, ate out for dinner at a Chinese resturant on the Eastside... pretty decent day, all things considered. I might review White Musk from The Body Shop like I promised, if I get the time tomorrow (I'm wearing Lovely by Sarah Jessica Parker right now... one of the few celebrity scents I can stand!)

Ooh, I also checked out the latest three episodes of Danny Phantom, if anybody cares. ( Spoiler. ) In related TV-news, Heroes is back real soon with the last five episodes for the season... and I can't flipping wait. It's going to be absolutely mind-blowing; I have my fingers crossed!

I really miss Jeremy.. or just having a boyfriend in general, really.

I am incredibly bored right now. I pretty much should be doing... more artwork for my Wednesday Art exhibit/critique/exam (ack!) but I'm completely uninspired, so, I don't exactly see the point. Unless anybody wants to give me any ideas! (that I can pretend are deep/philosophical/politically or culturally significant... O___O;) But, on that note, thanks to xue and eatingsoup101 for their opinions last entry; you guys gave me alot of ideas!

In a strange way, I actually feel like writing something. A little short story, or whatever. Any requests? Ideas? I might as well whip up something while in the mood... ^^;

Just finished self-reporting at the UBC website. God, do I love that system, seeing as all you have to do is type in your grades and they tell you whether you're accepted or not :D Apparently they calculated my average to a 90.5% (they take English 12 and three other top provincial courses) so I'm eligible for quite a few cool scholarships ♥ Mwahahaha! Even though it's only my second/third choice for universities, I'm really quite relieved now!

I think all they have to do now is mail the official acceptance letter and verify that all the information is correct. I checked over my data like, five times, so I hope I didn't screw up majorly or forget something super-important O____O; Other than that, I feel like a huuuuge weight has been lifted off my shoulders! One down, two more to go!

As Tall As Lions - Ghosts of York <- the real link! Sorry about last time. I'm an idiot - even though I've uploaded so many songs, I still screw up the links at times ;D Anyways, I'll only upload this one since it seems like it was the only one people had any interest in. But if you guys want any other music, feel free to ask.

It's Friday and instead of going out with friends or my boyfriend, I'm staying home and listening to Eva Cassidy. I must be fourty on the inside.

Eva Cassidy - Yesterday -> Beatles' cover. Hopefully, you recognize this song :) And hopefully, you know who Eva Cassidy is, because you're missing out if you don't. Anyways, her cover is absolutely beautiful and on par with the original (shock!) so I'd recommend you guys download it. Listen to it when you're feeling sad, lonely, blue... it's really the perfect song.

Lately, I haven't really been able to say anything honest without... making a fool out of myself. So better not to say anything at all :) I just wanted to make sure I got that song for you guys ^^; see y'all around!

...I'm back!!! ♥♥♥

After a month-and-a-half long hiatus, I've discovered one thing: People like me need emotional outlets. Livejournal is an emotional outlet. Therefore... people like me need Livejournal :)

I really missed you guys! There's a marked difference between writing in a public journal and writing in a private one, and I've realized I prefer the former. As much of a bitch I can be at times, I can't live without social interaction. Obviously, I socially interact with people offline too, but I think the general anonymity of the internet makes it easier for me to get a little more personal. And, besides - I missed out on hearing what's been going on with you guys for the past season, so if you'd like, fill me in! Although I've been checking back and reading every now and then, I'm not 100% up-to-date, either. How have you guys been? ♥

Ahh, I tried to start over with this journal, and deleted a couple of entries... how aggravating is it that LJ won't let you delete all your journal entries at once? Seeing as I have more than one hundred entries, it's more difficult for me to delete everything than it would be for a person who only made twenty or so. At any rate, I suppose the upside is that I can't truly erase the past this way, something I'm very much prone to doing. Still, I can't escape the feeling that I despise all my old entries and sound like a general douche in all of them :( It's easy to feel this way when one re-examines the past, I suppose.

At the very least, I changed my layout. It's just one of the Bloggish Styles and ultimately very minimalist, but that's the way I like things. I think I'm so bombarded with frills and lace in everyday life that I'm beginning to strive for simplicity. There's irony for you, I suppose. I'm also going to leave more entries public, because I'm really quite tired of all this "friends-only" privacy. One of my New Year's Resolutions is to be more trusting of others, so this is the first step in a series of many, I suppose.

So! How's my hiatus been? Alot has happened, to put things in a nutshell. To be honest, alot is going to happen still - it's second term, Senior Year, and I'll have so much work that I'm bound to have some academic angst at one point... and I can't expect I'll be very active here, but like I said, I need an outlet once in awhile that lets me psychobabble. But, anyways - over the winter break, I partied, re-connected with visiting friends, had my relatives from New Zealand stay at my house, found a new boyfriend, did tons of shopping, not a lick of homework, fought with my parents... and generally had a decent (if not particularly relaxing) vacation. Since I've gotten back to school I've been mad busy with work, though :( I don't hate my school any less than I did before, sorry to say.

But, enough about me. How's the flist? ♥ Like I said before - I missed you guys tons, so, fill me innnnnnn!

HIATUS.
Sorry, you guys. The thing with LJ is that it's supposed to be an interactive journaling community, and lately... well, it's pretty obvious that I haven't been the most "interactive" person. If you've been reading my journal this year at all you'll probably have figured out by now that it hasn't been a very easy year, so I don't have much free time. And when I do have it, it's way more likely I'll use it to indulge myself because I'm a pretty self-centered person at heart. And therefore I value my "me" time almost above anything else in the world. 

But, rather than leave you guys hanging, I've just decided to call a TEMPORARY hiatus on this journal for a few weeks, a few months - we'll see how things work out. It's not at ALL fair to you guys that you have to read my long, rambling entries when I haven't been making the effort to comment on any of your journals lately, after all. I'll still be journalling, but it's either going to be away from LJ or kept to a completely private setting. What can I say? I like writing things down. It makes me feel like I've made a mark on the world. 

Anyways, I totally love all you guys and will miss you guys like crazy (and you can bet I'll be popping into LJ around once a week to read your entries), it's just that you won't see me around. You're totally free to take me off your flist, though, if we're really good friends - or have at least been friends for quite a long time now - I can only hope you don't because I will be back one day ;D But it's not like I'll bitch at you for cutting me or anything - hopefully you guys know me better than that. It's just that I might be gone for... a while, that's all. 

I'm not going to be responding to any comments made on this post, but you're free to make them as you like. Have a great year, everybody! Best wishes to you all!
XOXO,
Chantelle.

Because I need to do some of the memes I've been tagged with :) -

Three Wishes:
1. Well, this one is rather obvious, but I'd love to be able to lose thirty pounds or so. Does that seem like a lot to ask? I totally hate the way my body looks (and for good reason) so in all honesty, I know I'd be so much happier if I could just skinny down to a smaller size. Although it seems shallow, my weight problems have really overtaken my life =/
2. I wish I could sort out my feelings for a certain person. Lately, it's been causing me so much internal grief that I can't really focus on anything, and therefore, I just want to... better understand why I'm such a mess. More than anything, I want to accept the fact that this person could be happy - even without me. At the moment, I can't seem to grasp the concept that I'm no longer the most special person in his life (possibly aside from his family). Is that selfish of me?
3. I wish to have a Merry Christmas this year. Past three years, things have been disastrous around the holiday season, to say the least - and I'd like to change that pattern. My cousin is visiting from New Zealand, and since I absolutely adore her, hopefully, this one will really come true ^o^ I guess this wish also consists of the mini-wish that my entire family could just get along for once, seeing as every Christmas, it seems like we're extra-hostile to one another.

Tagging creamysoup, moo_chan, ilime.

Top Five Songs: (I'll have to go with at the moment for this one since I could never pick out five overall!)
1.) Alexz Johnson - Temporary Insanity
I guess this song reflects my feelings, lately, and Alexz Johnson just has such an amazing vocal delivery. I love how this song starts off with a very low-key, synthesized sound, and then moves into a pop-rock chorus. I can't imagine not liking this song, actually :) But more than anything, it's like this song reflects what's going on in my life at the moment. Y'll should really check this girl out; she's amazing - even if she IS on Instant Star.
2.) Hello Tokyo - Bury Yourself
Go a few entries back and you'll see that I've uploaded/explained this one already, but to recap in a nutshell: It's such a raw, pretty song, and once again - the lyrics are something I can really relate to. In a way, it actually inspires me.
3.) REM - Losing My Religion
Just because this is an older song doesn't make it boring or stale - in fact, it's just the opposite, and I pretty much adore all the classics :) I like this song because it reflects a certain disphoria. Depending on how you interpret it, this song relates to me, too. *falls* Yeah, I'm really sentimental lately. Anyways, this song is all kinds of awesome :D
4.) Butch Walker - So At Last
I'm not sure if I've uploaded this before, but I hope not. This is a really cool song - my favorite from Butch's gorgeous Letters album, and it's got such a slow, breezy feel to it, like an old Western movie. I can't even describe it - it's as if there's a certain epic feeling to the laziness of the song, and the song always gives me such a heightened nostalgic feeling. ♥
5.) Frank Sinatra - Blue Moon
*sigh* This song is just so romantic. I adore the old bluesy/jazzy standards, and Frank Sinatra's crooning voice always just puts me in such a puddle. I always imagine this song being sung in one of those old-fashioned 50s dances, with the gallant teenage boys and their pretty, full-skirted girlfriends. It just fills me with such a warm, swaying feeling from my head to my toes!

Tagging skrknmt, kayimi, niterunner.

So, here's the thing - I figured since I really, really love listening to and sharing music - why not have a separate public post for all the music I upload? Instead of just confining my uploads to my flist, anybody can come in here and snag whatever :)

I'm actually inspired to do this from leipeipei, who is on my flist, and who always uploads these gorgeous songs for everybody (thanks, sweetie!). Anyways, I'll be uploading everything via Sendspace so links don't expire, seeing as I'll be adding on links rather than replacing them every week. Also, I may repeat songs I've uploaded for my flist in the past - just because they're SO good and more people need to hear them :)

PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU DOWNLOAD. SRSLY. Just a simple thank you will do. It's common courtesy and very much appreciated on my part. Thanks to you guys for reading this! Um, for legal purposes, delete after sampling, or w/e *nudgewink*. You know the drill. Support the artists.

Each update will be roughly 20 songs or so (not too little, not too much). Anyways, without further ado, though - onto the music!

( 20 Songs under cut! )

fin.

( Second batch of 20 songs under the cut! )

Once again - please, please, PLEASE comment. It took me a long time to upload/comment on all of these, and... most of us at least like a little bit of gratitude for the work we put into all of this. Thank you guys! Hope you enjoy ♥

( For potthead (Joya) - Harry/Luna! )

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Read/Review plz? I think I'm on a roll, haha. Anyways, potthead - here's hopin' you enjoy this! ♥

FRIENDS ONLY. Comment to be added. ♥ Please do; I'm very nice and promise I will not bite. Unless you bite me first, of course.